Seven different kinds of crazy, wrapped up in awesome
Apparently you are supposed to be able to look inside yourself and see the true you. Clearly I have some things to learn. Because when I look inside myself all I see is crazy. And awesome. But I can’t explain why – I just know I am.
I have realized recently that the only time I feel truly myself and at peace is when I am driving, listening to music. And the more I do it, the more I realize that it is true. I somehow have a very deep connection to the road. Or maybe it is to the sense of getting away, of not being tied to anything. Just me, the road, my music, and a map. Which only adds to my confusion. Why does that feel the most me? Aren’t I supposed to be making my life here and settling down? Isn’t that what I wanted? Who. Freaking. Knows. Oh wait…I’m supposed to know.
Some times I want to sell all of my possessions and just take my car and drive until I decide to stop just to see where I would wind up.
Maybe some day I will. Honestly, at this moment in time, it sounds like the most sane thing to do.
Oh, and I am supposed to focus on the positive thing so here goes:
1. I may be part of a paid runway tour for a designer next summer.
2. I have a great job.
3. I have wonderful family and friends.
4. Today my bosses bought me cookies (cookies are ALWAYS a positive thing)
5. The weather is beautiful.
This is a short list, but they are important things, people. Don’t underestimate the power of a giant chocolate chip cookie and some sunshine.